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What Made Maddy Run

Posted on 23 Oct 2017 In: Reading

Kate Fagan’s What Made Maddy Run is a heartbreaking, yet essential read.

“In interviews with Madison (Maddy) Holleran’s family and friends, and exhaustive reading of her texts, instant messages, and emails, Fagan reconstructs Maddy’s descent into mental illness that ultimately led to the elite athlete’s suicide at the University of Pennsylvania.

What emerges is a haunting recounting of a mental illness that probably had roots long before Maddy’s days in track at the University of Pennsylvania, but manifested itself there with the transition from high school elite athlete to a competitive college athletics program.”

I remember dreaming of college and what I thought it would be like.  I remember the transition being challenging in some ways- this only child had to learn to effectively share with other people and give up privacy- but it seems to be harder now than it was then. And it can be even more difficult for athletes or other elites, who were standouts in their high school world but just one of many in the college network.  Additionally, this generation has always been digital. Their whole lives are instagrammed or facebooked or snap-chatted in ways that show only the best. Filtered to show them in the best light. They text with their parents constantly, and are receiving immediate feedback on everything in the form of likes. Somewhere in the mix of it all, the transition to college is that much harder.

When a student also suffers from mental illness, the challenges of transition are only exacerbated.   What makes What Made Maddy Run so heartbreaking is that no one was in denial that Maddy was in trouble. Her parents were deeply concerned.  Parents of her friends noticed things. Maddy was seeing and finding a new therapist. She had a plan in place to get her through the semester at Penn when she could then look at other options for schools.  She seemed to be hanging on….until.

Fagan recounts Maddy’s story with sensitivity and unexpected insight. She shares text conversations between herself and others with insight into depression. She’s compassionate and respectful of both Maddy and her family.  Maddy’s story is heartbreaking because it is so relatable. And sadly, not so uncommon.  Many college and university coaching staffs and health facilities are not equipped to effectively deal with mental illness. By telling Maddy’s story, Fagan helps bring awareness to this issue.

And Fagan reminds us that what we see on the surface isn’t always what’s going on with someone.  A good reminder for us to be a little kinder to each other.

Although this one doesn’t have a happy ending, I consider it essential reading.


Posted on 16 Oct 2017 In: Reading

Stop what you are doing and get a copy of Dietland now.

It’s been a while since I read a book in one sitting, but that’s how much I enjoyed Dietland. I described it to a friend as “truth, humor, and a revenge chick-flick all in one.”

From the publsiher’s summary:
The diet revolution is here. And it’s armed.

Plum Kettle does her best not to be noticed, because when you’re fat, to be noticed is to be judged. With her job answering fan mail for a teen magazine, she is biding her time until her weight-loss surgery. But when a mysterious woman in colorful tights and combat boots begins following her, Plum falls down a rabbit hole into the world of Calliope House — an underground community of women who reject society’s rules — and is forced to confront the real costs of becoming “beautiful.” At the same time, a guerilla group begins terrorizing a world that mistreats women, and Plum becomes entangled in a sinister plot. The consequences are explosive.

“A giddy revenge fantasy that will shake up your thinking and burrow under your skin” (Entertainment Weekly), Dietland takes on the beauty industry, gender inequality, and our weight-loss obsession — with fists flying.

I’ve been gushing about this book, telling everyone I know to read it, and finding a way to do it without giving away anything is a challenge. Parts of the book made me terribly uncomfortable- exactly Walker’s plan, I suspect. Things that inundate us in our psyche every day, and should outrage us but don’t. While it’s a fun read, the book also makes you think- or should. How we treat people, how we choose our insults, how we measure an individual’s worth. We walk around in Plum’s skin a bit. Her journey could be our journey.  Now’s actually the perfect time for Dietland.  If you’ve paid any attention to the news of harassment in the last week or so, you’ll see why Dietland matters.

Walker takes on some challenging issues in this book- but does it in a non-preachy, empowering, and sometimes cringe-worthy way.  i

So I don’t spoil anything, I’ll stop with this: If you’ve been angered by Harvey Winestein, “Grab them by the Pussy”, the endless “me, too” posts highlighting a very real problem, then READ THIS BOOK. NOW.

I read Don’t Date Baptists earlier this summer and it made me laugh and cry.

I know Terry Barr personally- he is a professor at my alma mater. As such I felt like it would be best that I not formally review the book. But I did really enjoy it, and I want to help get the word out about it. Terry was gracious enough to agree to an author interview. Enjoy.

You can get your own copy of the book here.

TBF: At first, Don’t Date Baptists appears as if it’s going to be funny, full of anecdotes about life in a small southern town. But you definitely go deeper than that.  How did you find the right balance between humor and showing the underbelly of “polite society”?

I think the main thing I did, or tried to do, is to keep in mind that most of the people I knew and have written about were basically, intrinsically, good people. I know that sometimes they were harsh, and sometimes so was I in writing about them. I know that I have hard feelings about people I knew “back then,” but I also know that some of these same people nurtured me, spent much time with me, and shared with me our lives. They could be warm and funny and southern sweet, like most of us can. I didn’t have to “humanize” anyone; I simply tried to remember the very real sides to their complex characters. I tried to be authentic as far as I could remember and to the best of my memory. It helps, too, to remember that we are all products of our times: our era, our families, our peers. What if my parents had supported George Wallace? Again, sometimes I am too hard on people, but I do try, at least, to see their good sides and their humor.


TBF: I’ve never lived in a small southern town, but both my parents grew up in one, so they’ve always been a part of the fabric of my life. Do you think life in these towns is idealized?

Yes I do. Not by me so much, but I hear people say that the time and place we lived in was idyllic. Well, no, it wasn’t, though I had a great life. For instance, when you try to cram 1600 students into a school meant for 800, when that school was originally built for white people to escape zoning and integration, and when in that school you never knew who might get knifed or threatened, well, no, I don’t consider that in the golden haze of the homespun southern charm of idealized small town life. Still, I could walk to our downtown by myself or with friends. One of my friends had his own charge account at our neighborhood grocery. I got a lot of free Reese’s cups and football cards through him. We went into each other’s houses all the time and our mothers carted us around everywhere. I’m speaking of all my friends now. In Bessemer, as in other small towns, there was also great poverty and it was clear for everyone to see. Even within our friend groups there was division along class lines. It both was and wasn’t Mayberry, but I don’t remember any Andy Griffith figures who watched out over all of us.


TBF: I told you when I was reading the book that a couple of parts made me cry. Specifically a couple of stories involving race. I found them especially poignant in our current political environment.  Do you have any other thoughts you want to express about it? Or hindsight views in how what you wrote is potentially even more relevant now?

I hope these are relevant stories because what sort of society are we living in today? At PC, our opening convocation speaker this year said we are living in a “Post-Post Racial society.” We haven’t gotten past the hostilities of race, even though we know more people of other races today as friends, colleagues, and neighbors. I say neighbors, but consider: in my mother’s Lakewood neighborhood back in Bessemer, the racial makeup is probably 70-30 Black to White. She and her next door neighbor, who is Black, get on quite well. But does the neighborhood have gatherings? Is it cohesive?

Now my neighborhood in Greenville has an association that sponsors picnics, holiday open houses, and a crime watch. But there is only one mixed race family in the entire neighborhood.

At PC, we now employ 3 African-American professors. When I started back in 1987, we had just hired the first African-American professor ever. In the school cafeteria, you still see much segregated seating. We all notice, but what sort of impact do these things make on us?


TBF: Would you like to talk a bit about your writing process?

I try to write 3-4 times a week while I’m in the semester. I write in the mornings mainly, after I’ve read something nonfiction oriented, after I’ve had several cups of coffee (I order from red Rooster coffee in Floyd, VA), and after I’ve walked Max, my Carolina dog. I try to write for a couple of hours, but am happy if I get one hour. Sometimes it’s just random thoughts, but mainly I write with a certain memory or experience at the core. A few nights ago, we say Keb Mo and Taj Mahal at the Peace center, and while I was enjoying their electric blues, an image from my past announced itself and I had to do everything in my power to wait until the next morning to write.


TBF: I know you read a lot of essays from places like The Bitter Southerner, which I love and help support financially. Why TBS? And what other sites do you read regularly?

I love Full Grown People, Creative Nonfiction, Oxford American—must reads!!!


TBF: What’s in your to-read pile currently?

I am just finishing Newspaper Wars by Sid Bedingield, about South Carolina’s press, white and black, during the pre and full civil rights era. Next is Douglas Blackmon’s Slavery By Another Name. For fiction, I just finished Tom Perotta’s Mrs. Fletcher, I am in the middle of Celeste Ng’s new one, Little Fires Everywhere, and am looking forward to Jennifer Egan’s Manhattan Beach and Thomas Mullen’s Lightning Men.


TBF: What’s been your favorite thing about publishing a book? What’s the most unexpected thing about it, good or bad?

Having book signing parties!!! The most wonderful and unexpected thing was to reunite with old friends who found me again through the book.


TBF: What advice would you give to someone considering writing non-fiction, about their experiences?

To write all the memories you can first, and then get honest about how well and accurately you remember these events. I hope you have a brother and a trusted group of old friends, as I do, who can test your memory with theirs and help you check yourself!

I Think We Need A Group Hug

Posted on 3 Oct 2017 In: Thinking

I’m a little lost today, folks. I’m sad and tired and outraged and sad and despairing and sad. This is probably going to be a little rambling. Stay with me.

Tom Petty plays in the background as I write this. It’s not something I would normally write about but I need to get out of my own head and maybe one of you also needs to get out of your head and this helps.

Las Vegas is terrible – by the way, the Twitter handle for the Vegas police is @LVMPD if you want to show them a little love- almost incomprehensibly sad except this has played out so many times in our country and people offer outrage and thoughts and prayers and support and nothing changes. So instead of outrage this time, I feel like a rock is in my chest. Because I have no expectations that 59 is the number that forces us to have a real discussion about both mental health and our access to guns.

Then came the news that Tom Petty had died. But then he hadn’t. And then he did. And this one hurt. I went for a walk in the park yesterday to feel connected to nature. To see something pretty. I listened to a podcast that made me laugh because I needed to get out of my own head.

I came back home to Facebook outrage that there were too many posts lamenting Petty’s passing and not enough about Vegas and HOW DARE WE. That made me tired, too.

I finished a book I was reading. It was a compelling read but also quite sad. What Made Maddy Run, about mental health and college athletes and I was sad about that.

This week is melancholy, as one of my friends said so accurately. I said on Facebook that I feel like we need a big group hug. A lot of people agree with me.

I don’t know what we do next. I’ve felt so- I can’t even find the right word for it- the last several days. It’s too much. I feel like there are so many things that need to be fought on so many fronts, yet nothing seems to change and then something terrible happens and it adds to it. I have a friend with a terminal illness and I feel helpless that anything I can do for her can’t solve the biggest problem.

I could say all the things- be nicer to each other. Let’s make sure love wins. But that sounds hollow to me right now. At the same time, it’s the only thing I have. I’m going to a soccer match tonight, and I’m going to look around at the venue and hope no one opens fire on us. I’m going to be patient if security is heightened getting into the match. I’m going to look for ways out and have a game plan if something happens. But I’m also going to cheer on my team and enjoy my time with my friends. And I’m going to try to be more patient and kinder and slower to judge. I’m going to choose my outrage on the things that really matter. I’m going to fight the good fight, and I’m going to read books that aren’t sad and stressful. I’m going to find ways to laugh. I’m going to hug tighter and hug longer and check off the things on my bucket list. It’s all I know to do.

If you’re feeling like I am, I hope you find something to help you, too. Be in this space of melancholy, but find your way out. And if choosing joy and happiness and light seems insurmountable for you, please talk to a professional to help you. We’re in a bad place right now. I hope we get better.

Guest Post: Fictionary

Posted on 29 Sep 2017 In: Uncategorized

It’s a guest post today. When I saw a demo of Fictionary, I thought it was cool and asked how I could help publicize it. What’s Fictionary? Read on…

I’m very pleased to be invited onto Ashley’s blog to share my writing and editing journey. I’m an author who loves to edit, and I believe today’s author must also be their own structural editor.


The difficulty with editing is the time it takes and the cost of an editor. So what if I could speed up the process, spend less money, AND write better fiction?


This is the story of how we created Fictionary.


What is the Fictionary?


Fictionary will help writers turn a first draft into a great story by becoming their own big-picture editor.


With Fictionary, you can focus on character, plot, and setting. Fictionary helps you evaluate on a scene-by-scene basis or on the overall novel structure. Fictionary will show you the most important structural elements to work on first and guide you through the rewriting process.


Why a structural editing tool for writers?


Creating Fictionary began when I finished the first draft of my first novel. By then I’d read over 50 how-to-write and how-to-self-edit books. I’d taken writing courses and workshops, and had 100s of writing and rewriting tips swirling about in my head.


I knew I had to begin the editing process and improve the quality of my draft before sharing my work, but I didn’t know how to go about it.


My Worries:


How was I supposed to remember the torrent of advice and apply it to each scene? A spreadsheet, that’s how!


I created a spreadsheet with a chapter-by-chapter, scene-by-scene structure. Then I listed the different writing advice I needed to consider for EVERY scene. I ended up with over 75 “key elements of fiction”. I used the reports from the spreadsheet to visualize my novel.


Did Fictionary Work For Me?           


After the hard work of self-editing, the quality of my fiction was validated when my first two novels were shortlisted for prestigious crime writing awards and I landed a two-book deal with publisher Imajin Books.


My first editor said: “If every manuscript was this good, my job would be so easy!”


The next exciting moment came when DESCENT, my first novel, hit #1 on Amazon’s hot new releases. Descent was published by Luzifer-Verlag in Germany, and I sold the audio rights to Auspicious Apparatus Press. Imajin Books also published BLAZE, AVALANCHE and LOOK THE OTHER WAY.


Building Fictionary


I wanted to share my process, so other writers could benefit from an immediate approach to self-editing and rewriting first drafts. But who would want to use a spreadsheet?  Perhaps a fun, fast tool that helps writers visualize and self-edit their novels would be better.


I joined forces with author Michael Conn and business specialist Mathew Stanley, and we formed a company called Feedback Innovations just to build this tool for fiction writers.


You can find out more about Fictionary at https://Fictionary.co


Turn Your First Draft Into A Great Story

You can try Fictionary for free (no credit card required) for two weeks.

Download our free eBook, BIG-PICTURE Editing And The 15 Key Elements Of Fiction, and learn how big-picture editing is all about evaluating the major components of your story.