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Book 27: Three Wishes

Posted on 11 May 2010 In: Reading

Once in a while, the Fates conspire to show you something you need to see. Perhaps you’ve fallen into your life. Maybe you’re living someone else’s bliss.  Or maybe you simply woke up one day and said, there’s more than this,whatever this is.  And you’ve finally, finally admitted to yourself that while you’ve been blessed with so many wonderful things, you want still more.  Only now you want the things that you think are going to make you really happy, complete you, finally realize what your authentic self wants.  If you’re lucky, you blink your eyes or wave your magic wand or just wake up and do it, and you have this final piece to the puzzle.  Or you’re like me. You realize you simply don’t know how to begin to get what you want, or even if you deserve what you want.  That’s a painful, painful place to be. So you start reading books, to help you figure out how to get this elusive thing that is going to make you happy. You start talking to people who can give you clarity. More important, you listen to what these people tell you.  And then, just when you’re ready, more things keep coming into your life to point you in that right direction.  You know, these pesky Fates.
If you’ve been following this blog, you’ve seen Finding Your Own North Star and The Happiness Project here.  What I didn’t articulate as much with talking about these two books, was how much they impacted me personally.  They started me on a journey that I’ve been on for the last few months. I have actually spent many wonderful weeks working with someone who helped me change my perspective, question my motivations, face fears, and start thinking about things more positively. As part of that, I’ve learned that once you open up yourself to thinking about things in a different way, the messages you need to hear seem to find you, no matter what.
In browsing through the shelves at Barnes and Noble Sunday, that’s precisely what happened.  I’d picked up several fiction books, and I began meandering through non-fiction and current events. I perused and picked up several titles, reading book jackets, adding some to the basked and returning others to the shelves.  And then I came across Three Wishes. The first thing I noticed is that this memoir was really an intertwined memoir of three women, who co-authored the book.  Carey Goldberg, Beth Jones, and Pamela Ferdinand all lived in the Boston area, and all worked in journalism. They had all had successful careers and had happy, fulfilled lives in so many ways. But each woman was nearing the end of her thirties, and each wanted a baby.  But none had found the right man.  Carey was the first to decide that she would have a baby on her own.  She ended up using a sperm donor.
Of course, once she made the decision to go with a sperm donor, a man comes into her life, and the donor becomes unnecessary. So she passes the donations onto Beth.  And there you go.  Beth meets that right man. So the donations go to Pam, and lady luck strikes a third time.  Of course, not all the paths were easy once the man walked into the picture, and happy endings were not instantaneous. In fact, there were some devastating times before the happy endings. But the journey to happiness itself was an intriguing, sometimes sad, and ultimately heartwarming read.
For these women, the most important thing to them was to become a mother- but not at the expense of everything else in their life.  They visualized it, they planned for it, of course. But they didn’t stop living their life in the pursuit of this goal.  And that is exactly when they got what they wanted.  That was what struck me.  The dream doesn’t have to be marriage and motherhood.  That’s just what it happened to be for these women. It was their pursuing the goal while still living their life that spoke to me so much.
I’ve realized what is important is to give yourself permission to admit what you really want and pursue it.  Because once you do that, once you say that it is OK to want something, and that you deserve to have it, you start opening yourself up to the possibility of receiving it. Although I’ve not taken any huge steps yet, I’m already learning that doing things in my life that fulfill me is going to open me up to many more possibilities.
 Now all these books about people following their bliss seem to be finding their way into my path, whether from a conversation with a random seat mate on a Delta flight, or wandering through the aisles of a bookstore and just happening to pick up a book about people doing the same thing.
Regardless of what your own happy ending might be, this book reads like you’re sitting down with friends who are telling you their story, with all its hilarity and heartbreak.  And when you’re reading it, you know that no matter how circuitous the journey, these women wouldn’t trade it. Because once they opened their eyes to what they wanted, this journey is what led them to precisely where they were meant to be.

Book 26: Evermore

Posted on 9 May 2010 In: Reading

A line from Bon Jovi’s “Living on a Prayer” is running through my head: “Who-ah, we’re halfway there…” That’s right. This is book 26.  I’m halfway through my goal of reading 52 books this year.  I’m excited to be at this point. But enough about that… on to the book!


Evermore is another young adult book.  I’ve been reading a lot of YA books lately, and while I’m certainly not in the targeted age group, I’m not alone in being the only one not in that age group devouring books in the genre.  Some friends and I were discussing why we’ve been reading so much YA lately. We’ve come to the conclusion that it’s simply because there are some great stories being written for this group. And after all, we once were that age, so we can certainly appreciate the genre. With Evermore, I’m adding Alyson Noel to the ranks of Melissa Maar, Cassandra Clare, Maureen Johnson, and Richelle Mead- all YA authors in my library.


Evermore is the first of the “Immortals” series.  Ever Bloom has relocated to her aunt’s home in southern California after a car accident claimed the lives of her parents, sister, and dog. She’s mostly recovered from her injuries, save a scar on her forehead and, oh, yes, the ability to read the thoughts of everyone around her and see dead people. She’s not sure what to do with this new psychic ability and deals with it by using her iPod to block out as much psychic noise as possible.  Then she meets Damen.  He’s the one person whose aura she can’t see, whose thoughts she can’t read.  And this sets up the rest of the story, so I’m not going to say anything else about what happens. I don’t want to be giving out any spoilers.


Evermore fits in well with the paranormal genre.  It doesn’t try to be a Twilight, Vampire Academy, or Mortal Instruments.  Noel creates her own niche, so I didn’t feel like there was any copycat storytelling going on.  Her characters are well drawn, realistic.  The story is fast paced. I found myself wanting to know the story of Damen- what IS he, and how are he and Ever tied together? What is he playing at with his inconsistent behavior? Why is Ever’s dead sister visiting her?  Noel gives out the details of the story in little nuggets and hints that had me turning the page to see what I’d get to learn next. 


A quick read for me, entertaining.  Anyone who likes this genre would like this book. And I’ll be checking out more from Alyson Noel.


http://www.amazon.com/Evermore-Immortals-Alyson-Noel/dp/031253275X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1273416555&sr=8-1

Girls Weekend- Catching up with my BFF

Posted on 3 May 2010 In: Thinking

My best friend came to visit over the weekend.  To me, that’s the ultimate GNO.  Vanessa and I go way back, all the way to high school.  And our friendship has survived some pretty incredible things over the years, not the least of which is the distance between us and Vanessa being a wife and mother and me still being single and a perpetual pseudo-aunt rather than a mum myself.


I could write for days about our history, but I’ll save some of those old, juicier stories for later.  Instead, I’ll focus on what makes our visits so special, especially now that we aren’t in high school any longer.


I moved a lot growing up.  That’s one of the reasons I love Facebook.  I’ve been able to reconnect with people I went to junior high and high school with and no longer live near.  With us moving so much, I don’t really feel like I have a hometown.  “Home” is wherever my mother is  but it is nowhere I’ve lived or plan to live.   Having someone who has known me since I was fifteen, and is still a part of my life, makes me feel as though I have some roots.


A weekend visit just seems too short now. No matter what, there’s just not enough time for everything we want to do.  We did dinner Friday night; Saturday we shopped all day, then went to dinner, then shared a bottle of wine and watched a chick flick.  Sunday, we lingered over coffee before Vanessa had to head back home.


It’s just easy when you have a friend you’ve known so long, and who knows you so well.  We often laugh about how we share a brain.  And we’re so often on the same wavelength that it can be eerie.  Like the time we met for a Saturday of shopping dressed identically, down to our novelty socks, with absolutely no consultation about what each other was planning to wear.


Vanessa probably knows me better than anyone else. She is that true best friend to me. The one with whom I discuss the REALLY BIG ISSUES. The person with whom I dissolve into a fit of giggles for no apparent (or at least no sane) reason.  


Having no sisters of my own, I feel like Vanessa is what I would want in a sister, if I could create one.  The sense of familiarity and loyalty. Where we have fun no matter what we do.  Saturday night we had planned to go to dueling pianos at a local tapas bar.  And we would have had a great time (which reminds me of another post that needs to be made from when my college roommate came to visit).  But we had just as good of a time just talking and hanging out, a nice low key Girls Weekend. Part of what I think is the best thing about friendships in general, and especially best friends.



Book 25: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

Posted on 2 May 2010 In: Reading

I intended originally to include Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire in only the list of other books I read this year, since there are already two other Harry related posts in the blog.  But then some friends pointed out that this weekend is the assumed commemoration of Voldemort’s downfall,  and I had only about 70 pages left to finish the book so I decided to go for it.

Disclaimer now: If you’ve not read the HP series, there will be spoilers here.  If you’ve only seen the movies, there may be some things you didn’t know. If you’ve not read the books or seen the movies, you should.  I’m also tackling this posting a little differently than most others. I’m just going to list some of the things I really like about this particular book.  For reference, I re-read GOF this time in the UK, hard-cover edition. 


Goblet of Fire was a game changer.  While the first three HP novels all had their share of darkness and danger, there was still a sense that they were primarily novels for adolescents and children.  Clocking in at over 600 pages (over 700 in the US Hardcover edition), GOF broke that mold immediately. This was the book that brought back Voldemort in the flesh (such as it was). More importantly, l the characters, and we the readers saw a loss of innocence.  We learned that JK Rowling would not be sparing us (and the characters) from the deaths of people who were fighting for the side of right or simply in the wrong place at the wrong time.  Children, parents, heroes, friends- like in a real war, everyone was now fair game.


The hormones kicked in.  Harry has his first crush. Ron realizes he just might like Hermione as more than a friend, although he bungles that realization spectacularly.  Hermione snogs an international Quidditch hero. The subtlety with which Rowling presents all of this not only provides humor, but also takes the (older) readers back to that first awkward crush we all remember.  


Ron’s struggle at being “just” the side-kick (at least in his mind), and his belief that he is somehow inferior to Harry is starkly explored in this novel.  And given the age of the characters, quite realistic.


Despite her admiration for rules and order, when Hermione Granger decides something is worth fighting for, she won’t merely bend the rules, but completely obliterate them. Yes, she used a Time Turner in  Prisoner of Azkaban, but in GOF, she imprisons animagus Rita Skeeter in a jar to keep her from printing so many lies in the Daily Prophet.


Voldemort comes back, and nothing is going to be the same. We can see that old alliances will be reforming. And although it isn’t detailed grotesquely, we begin to see the lengths that Voldemort and the Death Eaters will use as they create their new regime, not the least of which are torture and cold-blooded murder.  


Two of my favorite ideas from the whole series comes from this book:First is Dumbledore’s belief that “Differences of habit and language are nothing at all if our aims are identical and our hearts are open (p627).”  The second is that we must all face the choice between what is right and what is easy.  Although I am in by no means embroiled in the ultimate battle of good versus evil, I try to apply that sentiment to my own life. I try to do what I think is right because it is right, no matter whether it is easy.


So, forgive me this third Harry Potter related posting, but enjoy it in the spirit is intended: a celebration of the downfall of the Darkest Wizard of the ages.


http://www.amazon.co.uk/Harry-Potter-Goblet-Fire-Book/dp/0747574502/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1272835364&sr=1-3













Thursday Night, That Mexican Restaurant by the Kroger

Posted on 28 Apr 2010 In: Thinking

I’m sorry if that title sounds flippant. I truly don’t know the name of the restaurant, and as we planned for that dinner, it was known as this, or as “that place we went on the 3-Day.”  It is a true matter of knowing a location and not a name.


This third GNO from last week was with the 3-Day ladies.  As I mentioned in an earlier post, the four of us met when we were training for the Breast Cancer 3-Day walk to benefit the Susan G. Komen Foundation.  Although this was now three years ago, we meet monthly for dinner.  Juggling four schedules, with two of us who travel periodically for work, one of us with three kids and a husband who travels for work, and the other of us with an unpredictable work schedule, and you can imagine getting things on the calendar can be hairy.


I promise I was looking forward to this dinner but I was TIRED.  In the seven days leading up to this night, I’d been to a concert, a play, a surprise party, two other dinners, fought allergies and cranky sinuses, and worked.  The week had worn on me, and of course since I had to be somewhere that evening, my commute had taken longer than normal (note to self, figure out what I’ve been doing lately to bring bad Karma on the evening commute when I really need to be somewhere and stop doing it). 


So the topics that night were heavier than I wanted to discuss.  I shut down some. And it wasn’t fair to the ladies I was with.  Although I’ve spoken with them all since then, I hope they’ll also accept this as a public apology for me being cranky and disengaged.  And that isn’t to belittle the topics. But sometimes, especially amongst friends, topics hit close to home. They hit you in unexpected ways. And when that happened to me on Thursday night, I chose the easier of the two reactions.  So this was by far not the best GNO I’ve had with these ladies.


But in another way, it was incredibly important to me. Because this same dinner was where the idea for this blog was born. I have L to thank for it.  L is a newly minted real estate agent. Within 30 seconds of sitting down at dinner, M1 asked “how’s our newest real estate agent?”.


L made the comment later in the evening that among her friends, we are some of the only ones who have even acknowledged her new job.  When L told us that at a recent lunch with other play group mothers, that only one of them asked about her new job, and that was when they were walking to their cars in the parking lot, the idea for this blog popped into my head.


I think we look at our friendships as ways to validate who we are as individuals. Sure, most of us have friends that have some context- people from work, from play group, from community groups or religious organizations. But I believe we are all looking for some friends who just see and value us as us, without any other labels.  That is what this group does for me. This dinner taught me how important it is to hear our friends, and understand what is important to them and recognize and acknowledge that. In too many other relationships, we don’t always get that.


Now, we’re trying to plan the May outing… We’ve at least narrowed it down to which weeks we should all have a free night. And I promise to be in a  better frame of mind next time.